I keep telling myself I should concentrate and study. But my brain seems to refuse to absorb anything that I read. And my heart is even worse, keep influencing my other body parts to be lazy. Is there no motivation in me anymore to study? Its like there's a silence struggle within me whenever I sat infront of the study desk. I feel like crying sometimes just because I don't have the will to revise. As if I couldnt care less about my future. That fact saddens me. Makes me wonder, am i too comfortable of who and where I am and what I have? But I have always wanted more out of life, more money, more knowledge and the list goes on. Then, why the struggle? I do have high ambitions and I do have high desire for self-actualisation. Maybe I should see a shrink. Get everything sorted out once and for all. What a waste of money and time, asking other ppl what you want and who you are!!! Such bull crap 
What I know for sure at the moment is that, I DON'T FEEL LIKE F***ING STUDYING!!! I'm sure a shrink can't deduce that from me.
God, please help me. Enlighten me! I wish there is drug to make boost up your morale to study more. Red Bull and coffee doesnt work anymore. They just make you hyper and you'll end up going out and have fun. Once the caffeine effect has drained off, you'll get depressed and realised you haven't done any work, feel like kicking yourself. Maybe I should go to the library to study tomorrow, hopefully the change of environment would do me good. Wish me luck strangers, byeeeee.
